Muddy Thuddy

[kalla]

I'm thinking of doing some system mapping, to try and sort things out Inside.  Also, seems like it might help my shrink? idk...  I'm just sick of all this mud in my head. 

We've never successfully completed a system map, so this should be interesting...

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[asfreeasleaves]

We also have never. Strangely enough.

[kalla]

We finished a basic outline. Now to fill in with the who's, the how's, and the what's...

[redblack]

I wish you luck.

-Jeska

[kalla]

Thank you Jeska! By the way, we love your name. What ethnicity is it? Did you pick it out yourself?

[redblack]

Well, I am a fictive, so Jeska is a name common in my homeworld. So ethnically it's Pardic. There was apparently a very powerful female warrior back in the past through the ages named Jeska, so many young girls have that name.

And just so you know who goes with whom in this particular journal. I am Phage's headmate. Not sure if we are fully a system or are a median.

And my brother, though Phage doesn't claim him as her family, is Kamahl, who was commenting to Alex's period post. :D

[kalla]

what's the difference between a system and a median? to me, if you've got multiple people sharing one body, that's d.i.d. seems simple enough?

also, we looked your name up cuz we were curious (Pardic doesn't really answer the question, ya know?) Jeska is a biblical name, and is considered the basis for Shakespeare's created name "Jessica." it's spelled jescha in the medieval Wycliffe Bible (but pronounced like jeska), so your name is an english phonetic spelling. very cool!

you guys all seem to have unique, cool names. a lot of us don't even have what would be considered real human names :/ we've tried assigning ourselves names, like picking them ourself, but it doesn't stick and just feels weird. we're born with our names, and they're us for life.

-Stranger

[asfreeasleaves]

Aaaaah! I'm sorry. I thought you meant the ethnicity of the name as it is on my world. I didn't know you meant the this-world ethnicity. Because I didn't know it had a this-world ethnicity, so I'm very glad to know.

As for median. Someone who considers themselves to have two or more aspects to themselves but isn't completely separate, or someone whose system is most often blendy. When I'm fronting, there's half me and half Phage at any given moment. The balance of me vs. Phage can shift, but I'm always there somehow. We're almost plural, but not quite. That only applies to Phage and I, not to anyone else here, though.

As for names, a lot of people know them when they come to front. Some don't remember. Some have to pick names. And there're people here without human-sounding names too. And we like y'all's names. They may not be "human-sounding" in all cases, but they're your names, and nobody can take them from you. Believe me, where I'm from originally that's an important thing. VERY important.

I think there's nothing bad about any of y'all's names. They're more unique than ours.

Also, my dear brother messed up our age. We're twenty-six, not twenty-five. But we usually either wind up accidentally saying we're a year off one way or the other. Meh.

There're also a few of us whose names actually mean pretty ordinary things if you translate them into English. For example, Hitori.

-Jeska

[kalla]

"Someone who considers themselves to have two or more aspects to themselves but isn't completely separate" -- our therapist says this is normalcy. That is to say, that "normal," non-disordered people all have lots of aspects of themselves, they just aren't completely separate into different people. Exp: inner-child, work personality vs. personality with friends, ext. We have some Insiders that never seem to Front alone though. Is that what you mean? Like, they're individuals Inside, but they're too shy or scared to come out alone (as far as I know, all our people like this are very young. Most of our little ones will only come out in groups and/or with an older person to protect them). We come out in pairs/groups a lot though, because being co-conscious helps us not lose time and transition easier. Also, there's not enough time in the day for all our people who like fronting to come out one at a time. People who don't speak English well come out with another to help them speak/write if they're interacting with Outsiders (we were raised speaking many languages, and people who were born during a time we were only speaking one (like were at a grandparents' for the summer) tend to have a really hard time with English). Ok, I've officially rambled. Moving on...

Thanks! I'm glad you like our names, and that some of you guys have non-human ones too. That makes us feel better :)

Our body is 25, but a lot of people here can never remember that, or else forget when people ask how old we are that they're referring to the body, and just give their own ages. It's pretty awkward, especially when someone proudly states that they're 7 and three quarters :/ Shy littles will say age in fingers, like holding up 4 fingers when asked how old they are, instead of saying "four." That's a little easier to play off... Also, when our birthday is depends on who you ask, so about half our friends think our birthday is January 28th, and the other half know it's November 11th (our actual birth date). Plus side? We get two birthday parties a year :D

Okay, time to go take a shower and get going with the day... *sigh* Staying in this bed sounds soooo much better!!! Bleh. Oh well. Talk to you later!

-Emma